Okay, I am not a patient person. I have submitted several of my layouts and projects to various magazines and contests and am now playing the waiting game. Will they call or email / will they not? I hope I get a phone call, but there are 600 other people doing the same for the Memory Makers Masters contest. How could I possibly be one of the 10? Not very likely. I loved my layouts that I sent in and feel really confident that they are up to par, but even since then, my style has changed. I have a wild need to create right now. I love what is coming out of me onto my pages. But will they??? Will others? I am full of self-doubt from this darn submission process. How can I possibly wait another minute to aleve myself of this nervous energy, this anxiety, this "how can I possibly be good enough" feeling. There is such a range of talent out there that I find it impossible to believe that I can even figure out what they are looking for. Am I good enough for them? Do I care? Of course, I would love to have that reassurance that I am one of the best, but I think for me it's not only the validation but the excitement of doing something that I have been afraid to do... go public with my art. Be out there and having to meet deadlines for new pages with new products... that would be stressful and FUN!
Anyways, It's Monday and they will begin calling the finalists... the best. Will I get a call? Will I sit here and feel terrible when I don't? I don't want to get my hopes up so high and then nothing come of it. It is my first time submitting after all. I've sent them my best pages, at the time. All I can do is hope that it is good enough and that I will remember that I felt good about them when I sent them, if and when I find out for sure "Yay or Nay". Fingers and toes crossed!