Monday, August 13, 2007

Waiting....

Okay, I am not a patient person. I have submitted several of my layouts and projects to various magazines and contests and am now playing the waiting game. Will they call or email / will they not? I hope I get a phone call, but there are 600 other people doing the same for the Memory Makers Masters contest. How could I possibly be one of the 10? Not very likely. I loved my layouts that I sent in and feel really confident that they are up to par, but even since then, my style has changed. I have a wild need to create right now. I love what is coming out of me onto my pages. But will they??? Will others? I am full of self-doubt from this darn submission process. How can I possibly wait another minute to aleve myself of this nervous energy, this anxiety, this "how can I possibly be good enough" feeling. There is such a range of talent out there that I find it impossible to believe that I can even figure out what they are looking for. Am I good enough for them? Do I care? Of course, I would love to have that reassurance that I am one of the best, but I think for me it's not only the validation but the excitement of doing something that I have been afraid to do... go public with my art. Be out there and having to meet deadlines for new pages with new products... that would be stressful and FUN!
Anyways, It's Monday and they will begin calling the finalists... the best. Will I get a call? Will I sit here and feel terrible when I don't? I don't want to get my hopes up so high and then nothing come of it. It is my first time submitting after all. I've sent them my best pages, at the time. All I can do is hope that it is good enough and that I will remember that I felt good about them when I sent them, if and when I find out for sure "Yay or Nay". Fingers and toes crossed!

4 comments:

Melonie said...

Oh Jen I am right there with ya! I know what you are feeling but I have to tell you you shouldn't doubt yourself for a second. Your stuff is tops and if it isn't right for MM that doesn't mean it isn't right for another publication or team. For what it's worth, you have rapidly become one of my favorite scrappers. LOVE your stuff! YOU ROCK!! Keep your head up, the wait can't be much longer!

Anonymous said...

Jen, Whether you make it or not is no indication of your self worth - just keep on submitting and it will happen - have faith my friend...you are so very talented....something will come of it. If not MMM - Ck or someone else will come calling. I just know good things are in store for you!
Bon Bon

Gina said...

It's true, it doesn't matter what they think, it's more what you think! I understand the anxiety of waiting...not that I entered MM, but I did a big digital contest. Anyway, we all love your stuff and you're already inspiring tons of us to stretch our creative limits. I hope they choose you!

Holly Terra said...

Good LUCK!!!