The preggo brain has set in and so have the hormones. I am a walking time bomb. I am happy one minute.. calm and relaxed and then BLAM! I remember I forgot to do a million things and I become cranky, crazed, and mean! I don't remember being this unreliable in my first pregnancy. I am forgetting stupid things... I forgot to put stamps on some mail and it was returned to me... now it's late. I forgot to check what day I made a spa appt on and it turned out that I made it for a Tuesday instead of the Saturday that I showed up. I was super pissed about that one! I forget what day it is sometimes. I'm a mess! I can't concentrate either. I try to start a new project, get sidetracked (usually by a very bossy 3 year old) and then end up accomplishing NOTHING! I'm thinking I need a vacation from summer vacation! I need to go away for a weekend by myself. I'm no good to anyone right now. I am anti social and crabby. I just want to do what I want to do with no distractions. Is that crazy? Where would I go? How could I possibly do this on my own? I'm so tempted to just go! To where? Well, I'm pulled to the water... a beach of sorts. I would love to go to the Cape, but that is too far to drive by myself and too expensive to justify. SO, I am thinking just renting a room at Sylvan Beach on Oneida Lake and veg out. Scrap all day, eat when I want, sleep when I feel like it. Just sit in the sand? okay, it's a dream. It's probably not going to happen. Life is not fair and with Matt working and everyweekend filling up, I am having a hard time just planning this. I feel guilty and tempted all the same. I do have a week until I spend an entire week (Mon- Fri. 8-5) at a papermaking workshop with Margie Hughto. She is a very well known artist locally and has work all over the world. I am so excited to see her studio and spend a week making ART for myself! Maybe that will re-energize me. Art always does. NO disruptions, just artists working together. I'm super ready for that! So, I will post pics when I am done with that workshop and who knows, it might take my scrap art in a new direction! Now, to get some stuff done and stop putting it off and stop whining about all that's making me crazy in my life.
Be gentle with yourself
20 hours ago